I have new hair! I am making good inroads into being blonde! Is ace! I also find that I get more attention as a blonde - last night I man nearly fell over the crub while he was staring at me SOOOOO HILAROUS!!!
Unfortunately the thing with the blond is that it makes my hair straight, and I love my curls! Apparently it will wear off, but I dont know if I can stand flat hair! So I was googling about my flat hair, and i found a fab website - www.naturallycurly.com and it is AWESOME for people with curls. Chanegd my life.
It is not just my hair behaving strangely - also feels like the people around me acting strangely. M has been a bit awol, and I dont know if it is my possibly move to Melb, or what, but she feels really distant. It makes me a bit lonely. :(
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Best Laid Intentions
With the anxiety ++ last week I decided to have a nice wee weekend doing nice things for myself. I booked a hair appt to update the progress of the highlights, and I went shopping. It was really nice, something I haven't really done in ages...I tried a new hairdresser, and really prefer the way she has done it...
I did feel a little sorry for myself, being all alone, M was in Nelson, and I dont feel like I have so many friends here atm.....(no, not the poor mees!)
Food ++ (this week)
After my chat with the counsellor last week, I am trying to reorganise my eating habits.....but I let myself have the weekend....so now I am eating healthy. It is hell. But is day 2 and so far so good...last night instead of a family block of chocolate and a big bag of cheezls, I had a small caramello chocolate bar, and some pistachios. It was ok. But not the same....and am hanging out for my junk food hit tonight. I eat really well the rest of the time (got my home made bean burritos for lunch) but it is at night where it all falls apart...my counsellor thinks it is linked with teh anxiety....thank god for the drugs..
Smoking ++ (altho should be - - )
Altho food is nowhere near the hell of not smoking. Today is 17 days. 17 DAYS!I want a smoke ALOT....I am wearing my patches, and chewing my gum...maybe it has to get worse before it gets better....maybe I need to call the helpline. M has fallen off the no smoking wagon, and i feel a little superior.
Family - - -
I am having LOTS of family issues atm...my sisters are making my mothers life hell, yet she will do nothing about it. Except complain to me, alot. And it breaks my heart to hear her so unhappy and so depressed.....but I dont know what to do....
Work is good, have plenty to keep me occipied...and off to the gym tongiht!!
Best laid intentions.............
I did feel a little sorry for myself, being all alone, M was in Nelson, and I dont feel like I have so many friends here atm.....(no, not the poor mees!)
Food ++ (this week)
After my chat with the counsellor last week, I am trying to reorganise my eating habits.....but I let myself have the weekend....so now I am eating healthy. It is hell. But is day 2 and so far so good...last night instead of a family block of chocolate and a big bag of cheezls, I had a small caramello chocolate bar, and some pistachios. It was ok. But not the same....and am hanging out for my junk food hit tonight. I eat really well the rest of the time (got my home made bean burritos for lunch) but it is at night where it all falls apart...my counsellor thinks it is linked with teh anxiety....thank god for the drugs..
Smoking ++ (altho should be - - )
Altho food is nowhere near the hell of not smoking. Today is 17 days. 17 DAYS!I want a smoke ALOT....I am wearing my patches, and chewing my gum...maybe it has to get worse before it gets better....maybe I need to call the helpline. M has fallen off the no smoking wagon, and i feel a little superior.
Family - - -
I am having LOTS of family issues atm...my sisters are making my mothers life hell, yet she will do nothing about it. Except complain to me, alot. And it breaks my heart to hear her so unhappy and so depressed.....but I dont know what to do....
Work is good, have plenty to keep me occipied...and off to the gym tongiht!!
Best laid intentions.............
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Recap
I think a recap is in order, as I have realised I haven't posted anything on this site since December! Is probably because I have been toooo busy checking out other people's blogs! There are some awesome ones! Puts my little attempt to shame!
Aus man - check
Things are going well with the Aus man...we came to visit for a week, and it went fab....DYING to move over and be closer to him..the job hunt continues..we got me the cutest lion toy for V day - he doesn't think I know why he chose it..but I do! Nothing gets past me! It is just over three months that we have been together. He is v sweet...
Job - check
I have a job, it is awesome, but it is in the wrong country.Aus/NZ is just tooo big a commute! The job hunt goes slowly...have 9 (approx) job applications in teh pipeline...cross fingers!
Not smoking - check
Have cut back on the drinking, and it has made SUCH a difference....is easier not to smoke, and I just dont want to drink so much...funny how these things go together...now if I could just stop eating anything that is stationary (ha ha stationery!!)
Sanity - not so much
Head in a bad space today. Anxiety ++. Am hanging out to go home. However I managed to sort out my bills, which was ++ awful, but now they are done, and I do feel a tiny bit better for it....ANTM is on tonight, and i can't wait! I have the latest MArie CLaire and jsut gonna rug up for it...maybe do some baking, have been online checking out recipes..have been craving coffee cake for the last couple of months...I got some great recipes off NZs favourite baker - or some varient of that. V indulgent....
This weekend am getting hair recoloured, and might do a bit of shopping - I NEED new clothes, everything is shabby/toosmall/too big/too short...wish me luck!!
Aus man - check
Things are going well with the Aus man...we came to visit for a week, and it went fab....DYING to move over and be closer to him..the job hunt continues..we got me the cutest lion toy for V day - he doesn't think I know why he chose it..but I do! Nothing gets past me! It is just over three months that we have been together. He is v sweet...
Job - check
I have a job, it is awesome, but it is in the wrong country.Aus/NZ is just tooo big a commute! The job hunt goes slowly...have 9 (approx) job applications in teh pipeline...cross fingers!
Not smoking - check
Have cut back on the drinking, and it has made SUCH a difference....is easier not to smoke, and I just dont want to drink so much...funny how these things go together...now if I could just stop eating anything that is stationary (ha ha stationery!!)
Sanity - not so much
Head in a bad space today. Anxiety ++. Am hanging out to go home. However I managed to sort out my bills, which was ++ awful, but now they are done, and I do feel a tiny bit better for it....ANTM is on tonight, and i can't wait! I have the latest MArie CLaire and jsut gonna rug up for it...maybe do some baking, have been online checking out recipes..have been craving coffee cake for the last couple of months...I got some great recipes off NZs favourite baker - or some varient of that. V indulgent....
This weekend am getting hair recoloured, and might do a bit of shopping - I NEED new clothes, everything is shabby/toosmall/too big/too short...wish me luck!!
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